Tuesday, June 26, 2012

Sometimes & Always

Why does blogger hate me?!! I just wrote an amazing post of my 4 day weekend & linked up for sometimes and always but blogger and I apparently aren't getting along (I don't know what I did to upset her). So I am not retyping it. I will just show you the photos and cry myself to sleep.

Me... Sunday I know it should have been in the last post. Maybe I'll edit it in :)

Photo Collage Part 1

Part 2, All I did was get ribbon and mini clothespins from AC Moore so BFF Bride to be will be able to re-use the photos

Her table and gifts :) I made the poms and the sign in the back

SURPRISE BFF Bride :)

& just because I love to link up with Mackey Madness for sometimes&always I will try really really hard to remember them.

Sometimes: People really need a tongue lashing but I don't like upsetting people

Always: The truth hurts and people need to hear it!

Sometimes: I feel like I wish Mr.B & I had more 'us' time before Baby B comes along.

Always: Feels like our 'us' time is getting ready for the Baby and house/yard work :(

Sometimes: I feel like a needy wife

Always: Just love being loved.

That is all folks. Hopefully Blogger and I will be getting along tomorrow lots of love to all my new followers!!!

till then..
xo
Mrs.B

Sunday, June 24, 2012

21 Weeks




Well I was pretty absent from blogging her whole first trimester and half of her second so better late then never right? 






·         How far along are you? 21 Weeks ( we go ^ every Saturday)

·         Total weight gain: I go to the Dr. tomorrow for a check up where I can get the official but I think its about 11 lbs  

·         Gender : it’s a GIRL! 

·         How big is baby?: According to the Bump she the size of a pomegranate At 10.5 inches and about 12.7 ounces


·         Maternity clothes: I am wearing maternity bottoms for the most part. Last summer I lost a ton of weight so I gifted myself with new clothes and threw away all of my bigger sizes. HUGE mistake. I'm still in all of my own tanks (mostly stretchy ones from Old Navy)

·         Stretch marks?: None yet.  

·         Wedding rings on or off?: On but tight with the heat swelling & weight gain

·         Sleep: Isn't good. I try to fall asleep on my left side and it hurts because I sleep on it so often, so I’ll lay on my back or right side and my limbs fall asleep. So I am up tossing and turning ALL NIGHT

·         Best moment this week?: Finished painting her room!

·         Movement: I just started feeling her moving on the 18th.


·         Food cravings: I don’t feel as if I have any out of the ordinary cravings. When I am hungry for something its usually a home cooked meal but in this heat that’s a NO GO!

·         Food aversions: Oranges. Too much acid.


·         Labor signs: Nope. Cramping but I think its just me growing


·         Belly button in or out?:  In.


·         What I miss: Comfortable sleep


·         What I'm looking forward to: Hearing her little heart beat tomorrow


·         Milestone: Feeling her moving around







Friday, June 22, 2012

Friday's Letters

I've never linked up with Ashley over from Adventures of Newlyweds but I am excited to this week!!



Dear Baby B, I love you and I haven't even met you yet. I'm so excited that your a little girl, you will for sure be spoiled and I can bet you will have Daddy wrapped around your finger in no time. Dear Hubby, Sometimes I wish you would understand more about this pregnancy but as scary as it is for you it is also as scary for me. We will work on it together. Dear Work, I love you and I know what I need to do - I'm just really scared. Dear Fur Babies, You guys are so cute & will always be my babies. Oscar instead of kissing my face off the other morning you were giving my belly licks. I know Baby B loved it because she was dancing away. Layla, you will be a great big sister you are so gentle and always want to cuddle. Jessie Pug you scare me with being so hyper but you're already understanding to stay away from certain baby things we already have. You will learn quickly. You three better not steal the baby toys! Dear Family, THANK you for all of your support I know I am  demanding impatient  but I know as perfect as I want everything you do too.



If you guys link up let me know!!! I would LOVVVE to read your letters!

xoxo
Mrs.B


Thursday, June 21, 2012

Dilemma...

My job. I have told you guys before that I am a firefighter. I LOVE my job. I love helping people, I love my coworkers, I have ONLY ever been a firefighter outside of high school. I have taken a few college classes but with my current schedule I haven't been able to go back..

So let me try to explain a little bit. I work a 24 hour shift. For example a normal work shift is 7am (today, the 21st ) until 7am (tomorrow, the 22nd) then I am off from 7:01am (tomorrow, the 22nd) until 7am (the 23rd) get it? Every 8 days (4 shifts) I get two days off in a row and every month and a half I get a 4 day weekend. Whew. I know its confusing but it is important for sound advice you see HOW much I actually work. Basically its 144 hours every two weeks. My husband who is also a firefighter (different departments, Hes a state employee while I am a federal employee) is going to 24 hour shifts also! His shift is a ton better (in my opinion) he will work 24 on and 48 off... I am about an hour and 15 minute commute one way and my husbands is about 10 minutes. The only tuff part is the federal system you make a ton more then you make state side. Easy part is we will survive on his pay, bad part is it wont be the lifestyle we currently live.

When BB (Baby B.) gets here I will be taking off work for about 4 months. & I KNOW with my schedule and my husbands it will be IMPOSSIBLE for one of us to return to work. Without putting BB into daycare for HOURS AND HOURS. I don't want to go back. I know its hard, its scary, its 5 years in the federal system waisted. Its a lot of things that I think about a lot It festers inside of me I need someone to tell me this is okay. My husband is worried about financial reasons - -Heck I AM TOO BABE. I just know it will be better for me as a MOTHER, as a wife and it will eventually make me into a better person.

Now for the PLAN. I am currently looking for jobs closer to home, State or Federal. I would prefer a federal so I can transfer all of my benefits rather then throwing them away. I want to look into going back to school. The military will pay for it so Its no worry & I will have a much better schedule if I'm closer to home doing a job that isn't as stressful and involved as firefighting. I will be able to cook dinner for my husband every night (pshhh) I will be able to hold my baby girl every day! Feed her and play with her. Hopefully I can find something within the next 7 months (Due in Nov + 3 months maternity).

So I know this is a long one and I am not looking for sympathy because I have already given myself enough of it :] How did working mothers do it? I know I am in a completely different situation with my job and schedule but some encouragement is needed so I can start my hunt and feel better about it.

Thanksssss
xo
Mrs.B



Wednesday, June 20, 2012

Hello again.. anyone there?

Oh my goodness! Talk about being such a long time ago that I announced my pregnancy! I have been overwhelmed and side tracked and thought about everything except writing on my blog! & for that my friends I am sorry. I have still been reading (no..no commenting just reading) I am here to tell you now that it is hot out I will be spending much more time in front of the computer with a tall glass of ice water.

Update? Oh you want an update!? Well sure I will do just that in bullets.

  • I am 20 weeks (21 on Saturday)
  • We found out 2 weeks ago that this alien is a GIRL
  • We are currently working on the nursery MINIMAL pink
  • I am in LOVE with monogrammed
  • ANYONE KNIT? I need your help!!! Comment here!
  • Lots of people ask how I can be a firefighter and pregnant - easy a Fire Department needs more then just FIREFIGHTERS. Ive been 'riding' a desk and working inspections and codes
  • Most all of my early pregnancy symptoms have gone away THANK YOU JESUS
  • I am on the hunt for a new Guard unit (I currently LOATH the one I am at in AC)
  • I am also on the hunt for a new JOB.. I love my job but I just don't know...that's a whole post kinda discussion
I think that is all. Really.
Baby B before we knew the gender!
My awesome Old Navy dress that SHRUNK :(

Gender Reveal cake that my friend PUNKED me with. It was layered Blue and Pink!!! HOLY NOT FUNNY
She had a backup Purple cake



Myself, Nicole and Jen
All friends from HS
All still pretty close
Nicole & Jen are both due in Aug!


I have tons more photos but I will spare you! Unless you want to see them of course :) Well Kids until next time.... I promise you wont have to wait so long!
XOXO
Mrs.B

Wednesday, April 11, 2012

I had a dream!


On Monday (March 5th).. during my nap I had a dream. It was very weird and I will spare you all of the details but long story short in my dream I took a pregnancy test but I was never able to see the results. So I woke up in a panic sorta. I got ready and headed out to the store to get something for dinner and maybe Chinese food for lunch (don't judge). While I was in the car I called Mr.B and told him about my dream and we both thought it was crazy so I decided to get a take home test just to sooth my curiosity. Well I took my good ole' time shopping. I actually went to Wally world, then to Pathmark - then finally to the Chinese restaurant to get my lunch.
Once I got home I didn't worry too much about the pregnancy tests because I was starving! I put away my cold foods and then I ate! While eating I opened the tests and realized I wasn't due to get my period until the 9th. While reading the packet it said that I would be able to tell (First response) but sometimes people aren't able to tell due to low amounts of some hormone in your urine and if I was going to take it early I needed to take it first thing in the morning. I couldn't wait and if it was a negative I had another test to take first thing in the morning! I am inpatient in the worst way. I took it - I set it on the counter then I walked away. I told myself that I would NOT sit there and watch to be either disappointed or super scared. When I returned back to the bathroom I saw a faint faint faint line!!!!! EEEkKkkk!! Mr.B was on his way home from work - so I send him a picture then called (well because he was driving so I knew I needed to TELL him to look at the picture). He looked at it and said he couldn't really see the line. I say it was very very bad cell phone photography. So we talked for a minute and it was the longest hour waiting for him to get home. When he got home just to appease my faint line and maybe somehow I thought it would be easier to talk myself into it...I took another one and this sucker was there. No denying that line. The right one is the first test I took the left is the second. So I haven't told any of my family yet and only one of my friends who works at a hospital just to get her input because she is also pregnant and 4 months along.
Whats going to happen next.. Well as you all know I just moved to DE this summer - I haven't found an OBGYN here yet! So I decided to google and research. I called my Dr. back in Philly and she said I could come in and get blood work done to confirm but I don't want to wait until next week! ahem remember inpatient! So tomorrow after the flower show with my sister I am going to drag her to DE - STEAL her cell phone so she cant call anyone to tell them my secret then I am going to beg her to go to Planed Parenthood with me. Just so I can get the blood work done and know 100% sure that there is something growing in my belly. I have already called a local hospital/women center for an initial appointment (which they don't do blood work, until APRIL when I would see an actual DR not a nurse?????) That is set for Thursday if my blood work is positive and I have a Dr. apt scheduled for April - Lets hope this all goes well!


WOW

Since that last tid bit - it has been OVER a month! I am about 10 weeks and 4 days right now (Saturdays add another week for me) and I finally told all of my family & made it -facebook official- I am NOT enjoying all the pregnancy hormones, sickness and related things... But I know I am creating a life inside of me and I need to be humble and accept it and cherish these times. On that note. From weeks 5-NOW I have been experiencing ALL day sickness. Random throwing up or dry heaving. Lately very bad vertigo (dizziness). I have a nose of a champ & sometimes I hate it.
 I had a bit of a scare with spotting around the 25th of March so  I went to the hospital maternity triage - Mr.B wasn't able to be there (stupid stupid work wouldn't let him go) but I saw little BB for the first time & I was also able to hear the little suckers heart beat - 167 bpm.
We weren't allowed prints so I used the handy IPhone!

 I sobbed like a kid. It was an amazing feeling to know that our baby was A-okay and to finally see the little sucker! After that we had our first prenatal appointment April 2nd, the Dr. (whom is pretty frickin awesome) let us get another ultrasound so Mr.B could see BB for himself :) and she printed out a few photos for us!
This was one of the prints I just took the picture with my IPhone. You can see the big ole' head and nose!

It was amazing. I know we still have a few weeks to go before we will find out the gender but we are already planning a gender reveal party! We don't have a HUGE family but we are going to be inviting our family AND our close friends so we can all find out together.

Any Pregnancy tips? Gender reveal party ideas? Our next appointment is April 30th (13 weeks) and I'm supposed to go every 4 weeks - so the next time after that will be at 17 weeks... do you think thats too early to find out what the gender is?

Oh and for shits and giggles here is a picture. From like 10 minutes ago. With my little lime (my bible book says BB is about 2 inches long aka the size of a lime) belly.
I just look awkwardly bloated but anyone who knows me can tell its a bump in the making!
 
xoxo
Mrs.B
 
 

Tuesday, March 20, 2012

Well.. what do we have here

Its been exactly two weeks since I last posted. I really haven't had much to write about. I mean the usual. House work, work-work, errands, more house work + a mix of nice weather, crap weather & lawn mowing. We have a few projects going on at the house right now and its driving me nuts. I really hate when we don't finish one project before we start another.... So I tomorrow I am going to focus on finishing up one of them. GOALS. whew. Growing up stinks.